Nom, Cactus Jam on toast 😆
The most horrific thing about getting close to someone is the thought that at any point, they could lose complete interest in you
If I ever tell you I’m going to sleep and then you see me posting or liking things online for about an hour immediately after that, I promise I wasn’t lying to you, I’m just bad at going to sleep and it is usually a long process that begins with disengaging from any sort of immediate contact with people (chats, for example) and ends when everything on my screen is blurry and I’m hallucinating plot points I haven’t written yet
What is it that makes us know we exist? Like, why are we only one person. There’s billions of people on this planet and we’ll only ever fully know 1 person’s life. We may get insights into others lives, but we’ll never actually experience it. I often wonder how it is that 1 brain can think and act by itself, but only for 1 person. It’s difficult to explain. How is life only 1 being. So minuscule compared to the world. If someone commits suicide, yes it will affect loved ones and friends, but that’s a handful of people out of billions, and it’s only that one person who knows how they felt at the precise moment of death and what happens after death, if anything at all. We can only ever fully achieve the understanding of 1 being on earth, ourselves. Some people even struggle with that. You think of the world and how much scientists have discovered and it’s incredible. But it’s scary to sit back and think about how much they haven’t.
Y’know what, I don’t care about getting a flat tummy etc for going to Ibiza. I’m going with my boyfriend, who loves me how I am. I’m not going to impress everyone else. My body isn’t going to disgust anyone else that sees me. Even if it did, I don’t care. If I was going for a girly holiday, and I was single, and looking to pull, then I’d probably care. But that’s not the case. Yes I would like to have a flat tummy and be a bit more toned, but I’m not going to stress myself over it. If this is how I look when I go away, then fair do’s.